LETTER TO MY CHILDREN

TO: DAVID, JEANETTE AND DEREK

FROM: YOUR FORGOTTEN MOTHER

WHAT DID I EVER DO TO YOU TO HAVE YOU ALL HATE ME SO MUCH BESIDE BEING MARRIED TO YOUR ABUSER OF A FATHER.

I DECIDED BEFORE YOU WERE BORN TO PROTECT YOU FROM HARM, I DID THAT MY WHOLE LIFE.

I NEVER TOLD YOU THAT YOU WERE ALL THE PRODUCTS OF BEING RAPED BY YOUR FATHER, THE PERSON I MARRIED FOOLISHLY WHEN I WAS SO YOUNG AND IN HINDSIGHT, STUPID.

HE TOLD ME THREE DAYS AFTER WE WERE MARRIED WHILE ENROUTE TO OUR NEW APARTMENT, THAT HE HAD NEVER BEEN FAITHFUL TO ME, NEVER WOULD BE FAITHFUL TO ME AND WOULD NEVER BE FAITHFUL TO ME.

THAN HE BRAGGED ABOUT HAVING SEX WITH MY BEST FRIEND BEFORE OUR WEDDING RECEPTION.

I WAS VERY DEVASTATED ABOUT HIS COMMENTS TO ME.

I SUSPECTED I WAS PROBABLY PREGNANT SO I MADE A DECISION TO HATE HIM THE REST OF MY LIFE DUE TO HIS COMMENTS TO ME. I MADE HIM ACKNOWLEDGE HIS RAPING ME EACH TIME HE WANTED IT.

OF COURSE HE CALLED ME A COW, A HEIFER HE HAD BOUGHT AND PURCHASED AND COULD MILK AND USE ANY TIME HE CHOSE AFTER ALL HE OWNED ME, BOUGHT AND PAID FOR ME BY MARRYING ME.

SINCE I WAS THE FIRST FEMALE WHO EVER REFUSED TO SLEEP WITH HIM REGARDLESS OF HIS COMMENTS I KNOW THE TRUTH, I WOULD NOT BELIEVE ANY WORD HE SAID TO YOU OR ME AGAIN. SO I HAD TO BE A KEEPER DUE TO THIS.

DAVID

I ASKED YOU FOR MONEY TO LEND ME IN 2014 YOU TOLD ME TO GO TO HELL AND NOT TO PHONE YOU AGAIN.

TOO BAD. I GUESS YOU FORGET THE MONEY YOU SUCK HOLD ME INTO GIVING YOU SINCE YOU WERE 18 YEARS OLD, ADVISING ME EACH TIME YOU BORROWED MONEY YOU WERE GOING TO PAY IT BACK. YOU NEVER HAD ANY INTENTIONS OF DOING SO. JUST FOR A LARK WE ASKED YOU TO REPAY THE MONEY IN 2003, WE DIDN’T NEED OR WANT IT AT THE TIME, BUT WANTED TO KNOW YOUR ANSWER, YOU TOLD YOUR FATHER YOU NEVER HAD ANY INTENTIONS OF REPAYING THAT MONEY BACK AND NEVER WOULD.

BECAUSE OF THAT RESPONSE I REFUSED TO LEND YOU MONEY AGAIN AS YOU HAD LIED TO ME. I BOUGHT AND PAID FOR YOUR FIRST CAR, PAID FOR THE WINDSHIELD TO BE REPAIRED, PAID FOR MOST OF YOUR DIVORCE AFTER SIX MONTHS OF MARRIAGE, PAID FOR YOUR WEDDING, OVER 20,000.00. I WAS JUST A BANK FOR YOU TO DO WITHDRAWALS FROM NOTHING ELSE. I ASKED YOU TO HELP ME IN 2003 WHILE I WAS OFF SICK FROM WORK AND COULD HARDLY WALK TO HELP ME AROUND THE HOUSE. WHAT DID YOU DO FOR THE WHOLE 5 DAYS YOU WERE DOWN VISITING ME, VISITING EVERYONE ELSE BUT ME, I WAS JUST A PLACE TO SLEEP AT NIGHT WITH YOUR GIRLFRIEND WHICH YOU MARRIED AS YOU GOT HER PREGNANT TWICE.

EACH TIME YOU VISITED ME YOU NEVER SPENT TIME WITH ME, I HAD TO PAY ALL YOUR EXPENSES, HAD TO BUY YOUR KIDS TOYS, I WAS NOT ALLOWED TO PICK OUT WHAT I WANTED FOR YOUR KIDS, I HAD TO PAY OVER 120.00 AND BUY SOMETHING YOU WANTED ME TO BUY. THAT WAS RUDE OF YOU TO DO SO, BUT I DID IT TO SPEND TIME WITH YOU AND THE KIDS, WHICH WAS 3 DAYS A YEAR MAYBE, AFTER ALL IT WAS 7 YEARS BEFORE I SAW YOUR SECOND CHILD AS YOU WERE UPSET I ASKED YOU TO APOLOGIZE TO ME FOR SOMETHING YOUR NEW WIFE DID. TO THIS DAY YOU REFUSED SO THAT IS OKAY. AT LEAST I NOW KNOW WHAT TYPE OF A PERSON I RAISED. A SELFISH NARCISSISTIC CHILD LIKE THE OTHER TWO. ONLY THINKING OF YOURSELF AND NO ONE ELSE.

IN 2008 YOU VISITED ME AT THE FARM WITH THE KIDS YOU REFUSED TO VISIT WHEN YOUR FATHER WAS AROUND, I NEVER FOUND OUT THE REASON FOR THAT UNTIL 2013 BY MY SISTER WHOM YOU HAD CONFIDED IN NOT ME.

AS USUAL I HAD TO PAY ALL YOUR EXPENSES, YOUR COFFEE, GAS, MEALS, ETC. CLOTHES FOR THE KIDS. YOU TOLD ME YOU WERE BROKE AND HAD TO MONEY SO I PAID FOR YOUR GAS AS ALWAYS TO VISIT ME. IMAGINE PAYING YOUR KIDS TO VISIT YOU. I NEVER WOULD HAVE THOUGHT OF ASKING MY PARENTS FOR MONEY TO VISIT THEM I DID IT AS I WANTED TO ONLY TO SPEND TIME WITH AND YOU NEVER DID THAT. MY HOUSE WAS ONLY A PLACE TO SLEEP AND HANGOUT WHEN ANYONE ELSE WAS GONE.

AFTER YOU HAD RETURNED TO KAPUSKASING I LEARNED FROM OTHERS THAT YOU PAID FIFTY THOUSAND DOLLARS IN CASH ON YOUR WAY BACK HOME WHILE YOU WERE IN KIRKLAND LAKE VISITING YOUR INLAWS. YOUR PURCHASED A NEW ATV OR YOU AND CAMERON, A NEW TRAILER, AND OTHER TOYS AND PAID CASH FOR IT. I WAS DEVASTATED THAT YOU WOULD USE AND ABUSE ME LIKE THAT.

I ASKED YOU TO HELP ME FOR 4 DAYS SO I COULD HAVE SURGERY IN 2015 YOU TOLD ME TO GO TO HELL AND NEVER TO CONTACT YOU AGAIN.

SO NOW I WON’T. IF I WERE TO DIE TOMORROW MORNING, I HAVE LEFT INSTRUCTIONS WITH THE FUNERAL HOME THAT MY THREE CHILDREN AND SISTER SHARON, HER HUSBAND PAUL, NOT ALLOWED TO ATTEND. THE WAY I SEE IT IS IF YOU DON’T WANT ANYTHING TO DO WITH ME WHILE I AM ALIVE YOU DON’T NEED TO FEEL SORRY FOR YOURSELF WHEN I AM DEAD.

I STANDBY WITH WHAT I SAID TO SHARON IN 2014 I SHOULD HAVE ABORTED YOU ALL BEFORE YOU WERE BORN, BUT UNLIKE MY THREE THANKLESS, CHILDREN I AM NOT A CRUEL PERSON ONLY YOUR FATHER AND MY THREE CHILDREN AND MY SISTER SHARON AND PAUL.

JEANETTE

I WAS THE ONE WHO DIAGNOSED YOU WITH MENINGITIS WHEN YOU WERE 3 DAYS OLD, THE DOCTORS ONLY CONFIRMED IT. YOU ALMOST DIED YOU WERE GIVEN YOUR LAST RIGHTS 6 TIMES DURING THE FIRST 3 WEEKS OF LIFE.

I SPEND AT LEAST ONE DAY EVERY WEEK OF YOUR LIFE IN AN EMERGENCY ROOM OR DOCTORS OFFICE DUE TO YOU ALWAYS HAVING UTI’S AND SPIKING A HIGH TEMPERATURE. IMAGINE SPENDING ALL THAT TIME IN HOSPITALS FOR A SICK CHILD WELL I DID IT. I WAS LUCKY IF I HAPPENED TO BE WORKING IN THAT FACILITY IF SO I WAS PUT THROUGH IF NOT I WAITED FOR HOURS.

LITTLE DID I KNOW YOUR FATHER WAS RAPING YOU FROM AGE 2 TO AGE 11 YEARS, I ONLY FIGURED THAT OUT MARCH 2016. AFTER YOU TOLD THE OPP TO CHARGE ME FOR TRUTHFUL COMMENTS I HAD PUT INTO MY DIVORCE DOCUMENTS, YOUR FATHER AND YOU TOOK EXCEPTION TO IT AND TOLD THE OPP TO CHARGE ME.

YOU TRIED TO HAVE ME ARRESTED WHEN YOU WERE 11 YEARS OLD AS WE WOULD NOT LET YOU DATE A 21 YR OLD BIKER WHOM YOU HAD LIED TO US ABOUT AND WAS DATING BEHIND OUR BACKS. ONE SATURDAY NIGHT I HIT YOU WITH A BELT AND LEFT MARKS, YOU DESERVED IT, YOU THREATENED TO KILL YOUR TWO BROTHERS. YOU NEVER WOULD DO ANYTHING I ASKED YOU TO DO. YOU REFUSED TO CLEAN YOUR ROOM UP, I HAD TO DO IT AFTER GETTING SICK OF LOOKING AT THE MESS EACH WEEK WHILE YOU WATCHED AND LAUGHED AT ME. THE OPP TOLD ME I SHOULD HAVE KILLED YOU IF YOU HAD BEEN THEIR DAUGHTER THEY WOULD HAVE AND WANTED TO KNOW IF I WANTED YOU BACK HOME, I SAID NO.SHE DIDN’T APPRECIATE WHAT SHE HAD SO LET HER LEARN HER LESSON. SO FOSTER CARE TOOK YOU AND YOU WERE ALWAYS RUNNING AWAY. AFTER SPENDING 9 THOUSAND DOLLARS WE DID NOT HAVE,  PAYING LAWYERS TO. I HAD TO SELL A HOUSE I LOVED TO PAY THOSE BILLS.

YOU BORROWED MONEY FOR DRESSES YOU JUST HAD TO HAVE WHILE NOT LIVING AT HOME, I PAID YOUR RENT, HEAT HYDRO, FOOD COSTS, ETC. PURCHASED YOUR FIRST CAR ALSO, BOUGHT GAS, REPAIRED IT. PAID 35,000.00 FOR YOUR WEDDING THEN JUST A FEW MONTHS AFTER IT YOU STOPPED TALKING TO ME AND SEND YOUR FATHER AN EMAIL STATING I WAS THE WORST MOTHER ANYONE COULD HAVE, I WAS MENTALLY UNSTABLE, I WAS NOT A NURSE, YOU RAN ME DOWN, SO I READ IT AND MADE UP MY MIND AGAIN NEVER TO REVERSE A DECISION I HAD MADE TO MYSELF WHEN YOU WERE ELEVEN YEARS OLD. NEVER TO BE AROUND YOU ALONE, I REFUSED TO BE AROUND OR BABYSIT YOUR KIDS IF YOU HAD ANY, AS I DID NOT TRUST YOU. YOU NEVER TOLD US YOU WERE IN LABOUR WE FOUND OUT AFTER THAT FACT ALSO. AFTER ALL I AM ONLY GOOD ENOUGH TO USE IF YOU WANTED MONEY ONLY.

YOU MADE MY LIFE A LIVING HELL, ALWAYS FIGHTING WITH ME AND YOUR BROTHERS EACH DAY LIKE YOUR FATHER YOU ENJOY FIGHTING ALL THE TIME, NO SUCH THING AS PEACE IN YOUR LIFE.

YOU HAVE TOLD ME SINCE YOU WERE 11 YEARS OLD THAT YOU WANTED THIS THIS AND THAT WHEN I DIED, ESPECIALLY MY HOUSE IN PERTH THE FIRST TIME YOU SAW IT, IN FACT YOU RENOVATED YOUR HOUSE THE SAME COLOR SCHEME I USED IN YOURS, PRETTY SAD NO ORIGINALITY. ONLY COPYING WHAT I HAD. WELL YOU HELPED YOUR FATHER SUCCEED IN TAKING IT AWAY FROM ME ALSO.

MY BIRDS YOU ALWAYS LOVED PLAYING WITH THEM UNTIL AFTER YOU WERE MARRIED THEN ALL OF A SUDDEN THEY WERE DISPICABLE TO BE AROUND. I THOUGHT THAT WAS YOU, A FOLLOWER ONLY. THREE MONTHS AFTER YOU WERE MARRIED THE FIRST TIME YOU VISITED US IN PERTH WE HAD TO PAY YOUR GAS HOME AS YOU HAD NO MONEY AND YOUR HUSBAND HAD LOTS OF MONEY, HE MADE OVER THREE HUNDRED THOUSAND DOLLARS A YEAR WHILE I ONLY MADE 30,000.00 THE LAST YEAR I WORKED USUALLY I TOOK HOME 17,000.00 OR LESS DURING MY MARRIAGE WITH OPP ONLY. NOT INCLUDING THE OTHER 2 JOBS I WORKED AT TO KEEP A ROOF OVER OUR HEADS, WHILE YOUR FATHER SAVED HIS AND REFUSED TO PAY BILLS WITH EVEN TO THIS DAY.

YOU TRIED TO HAVE ME ARRESTED IN JUNE 2014 AS YOUR FATHER FELL OFF A LADDER AND GOT HURT.  I WAS OUTSIDE AT THE TIME, NOT EVEN IN THE HOUSE BUT OF COURSE AS USUAL, ALWAYS BELIEVED WHAT LIES YOUR DAD TOLD YOU NOT WHAT THE TRUTH IS. YOU AND YOUR FATHER AND DEREK TRIED TO HAVE ME COMMITTED TO A MENTAL INSTITUTION, WHY, BECAUSE YOUR FATHER SAID SO. TOO BAD, BUT WITH A DAUGHTER LIKE YOU WHO NEEDS ENEMIES. DO NOT CALL OR CONTACT ME OR ATTEND MY FUNERAL. YOU ARE NOT WELCOME.

EVA YOU FATHER ABUSED HER FROM DAY ONE, CALLING HER A CUNT, FUCKING SLUT,IMAGINE CALLING A 2 YR OLD ALL THOSE NAMES HE CALLED HER. AND HITTING HER, ON THE FACE, BUTTOCKS, HANDS ALL BECAUSE SHE WANTED TO WATCH TV AND SHE WOULD NOT LET HIM WATCH TV. I REPORTED IT TO YOU AND TO THE CAS ALL IGNORED WHY, BECAUSE YOUR FATHER SAID HE WAS PLAYING GAMES WITH HER. WELL I TAPE RECORDED THOSE CONVERSATIONS AND THEY ARE NOW IN A SAFE PLACE SO YOU CAN HEAR THEM LATER ON. FYI. WITH KIDS LIKE YOU WHO NEEDS ENEMIES.

 

 

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